Moments..

Days like these are absoultely amazing, even though nothing extremely special happened. Every now and then as exchange students, we get these "moments." These days in which we will never forget. Now I'm sure these moments happen to more than just exchange students, but either way it's amazing.What makes these days so amazing are the little things like feeling like you fit in, like realizing "Oh my gosh, I live in Europe," like it finally hits you and it feels amazing. Today, was one of those days.
Like I said, nothing spectacular happened today, it was just a regular ol' Wednesday. Not to mention it hasn't been the best week, but today, today was different. I realized that I'm not just in Germany anymore, this is home. I have almost everything I normally would back home just a little different. I remember when it was so hard, when I had no friends or anything and it feels so good to have somebody call out your name and want to talk to you or invite you to come hang out this weekend. I totally took this for granted back home. I don't know how it is for the rest of Europe, but German's aren't that eager to open up or immediatly want to be your friend. They need time, which is a little frustrating to be honest, but when they finally decide to they are some pretty amazing friends.
These moments are so complicated and confusing, like I start to think about how amazing everything is here and that like wow, I live in Germany. I have a life in Germany with friends, a school, "families," everything and how terrible it will be to leave it. Then I begin to think about all the great things I get to go back to and I get so excited for what I have waiting for me back home. So I'm all excited to leave, but at the same time I don't want to. I really didn't think I would be experiencing this until a month or two before I go, but no...it's here, now.
I wish I could explain this better, but everytime I start writing nothing seems to explain it just right..Hopefully sometime I'll find just the right words so you can understand better.

I miss you all!

Love,
Courtney